It's hard to believe that this past week was a) only 5 days long and b) the first week of school. I was thrown so many new concepts, and was assigned so much work that I haven't had a chance to enjoy... anything really.
My classes are pretty rough. I'm taking 5 courses: Contemporary Design Approaches, Construction Systems, Structures, 2nd year Design Studio, and Youth and Teens Online (which is a high level sociology class.) So far I've had to do 70 pages of reading about the sociological history of childhood, 36 pages of readings of architectural theory, made devices to capture/photograph light, which I then needed to diagram, and a worksheet on forces distributed in trusses. In addition to this I had non-"required" things to do, like attend computing sessions to learn how to use Maya (which I still don't understand) and attend Architecture school picnics and sports team social events. These things would otherwise be enjoyable, but I haven't gotten used to dealing with the stress. Part of my mental issue might be that I have been taking into account everything that has been assigned to me, even if it isn't due for weeks. It still compiles into my mental to do list.
I was saying these things to Maggie the other day, and she responded with a quote from Perks of Being A Wallflower:
“And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad.”This made me feel a little better about complaining, because I chose this path. And I chose it for a reason. But sometimes it just gets hard and I need to get it off my chest, because the only other people who are also going through this are my architecture friends.
And let me tell you, I've got some awesome friends here.
Perhaps I'll leave that for another post though.
Wow. That is a lot of stuff.
But it's good to complain. It's cathartic. Also, in the end, complaints don't mean anything as long as you get your stuff done.
I am exactly like you in that far-off due dates stress me out and get themselves on my to-do lists. For example, I found myself worrying yesterday about studying for finals. FINALS! Months and months away. I think it just comes with being over achievers. I have to start studying for my GRE and stuff, too, because now I'm trying to get into grad school. Sheesh. But we love it, you know? Love love love it.
People here have already commented on how stressed I am just over scheduling... I'm sure I'll be having a mental breakdown soon enough. Shelby pretty much hit it spot on with the overachievers thing. But seriously, don't feel like you can't complain about things. Yes, you are choosing to do difficult things, but if that meant that you weren't allowed to feel overwhelmed by that, it would just be ridiculous.
YOU CAN DO ALL OF THIS!
You are brilliant! :D
you chose this path because you really want it! and can do it! :D
keep being strong and awesome.
I get what you mean about the mental to-do list. Mine is already huge.... You can do it, you are choosing a path that you are passionate about!
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